The Qualm And The Calm

Unprepared, is the word.

I had a whole different two years planned ahead of me, which had no traces of companionship in what-so-ever form. The plan was so fine and set, that I never had the slightest doubt that I will have to whisk away, ever. Having said that, I had no Plan B.

It included many different action plans including - change in job, get on with the passion part, do a masters, more of travel, nikon and what not, everything but a wedding ! I had also made a reasonable progress in a couple of the afore mentioned and luckily or rather unfortunately now, was shortlisted for the final stage of something that was simply more than just a dream to me.

And then, I had to choose.

It was the most chaotic fortnight I had to push through. I was neck-deep in the sea of dilemmas. The contemplation was rigorous. I was unsure of the sides. Each had its own validations. I wished it was still May and not August. Now, I sincerely hope history doesn't repeat itself, for I might not get lucky every time.

I could be selfish. I could be reluctant to give up on my dream job. I could be adamant to not get married off, this early. But things just do not work that way. I realised that my decision had its own impact on not just us ( S and me ! ) but also on the concerned families.

The choice was thus made. I, hopefully, will be going forth with the exact same 2-year plan, with a small shift in the time frame. Instead of 2015-17, it will be 2016-18.

My only rationale behind the decision - S ! And, I know I am gonna be thanking myself later.

>> Pray for me ! <<